惹人厌

我发现最近我在面子书有点惹人厌。。。
只要我留言，
他/他们都会说我吵、烦、多管闲事之类的。。。

所以，每次看到他/他们的回复后，
我都会默默地把我之前的留言给删除掉。。。
慢慢的变成我的习惯了。。。

也许他/他们只是跟我开玩笑。。。
也许不是有意的。。。
也许是真的觉得我很烦。。。
也许是我自己多心了。。。

最近的自己有点敏感。。。
可能因为那样才会那么在意那些事吧~

不管怎样，我已经决定了！
不会再留言在某些人的帖子了。。。
静静的看，默默地在心里留言就好。。。

我知道

不知道为什么忽然又好想哭。
忽然觉得自己是没有人要的。
忽然觉得自己被遗弃了，不管是被朋友还是家人。。。

我知道
当我觉得需要人安慰时，
不一定会有人安慰我。

我知道
我需要坚强，
不能事事都依赖他人。

我知道
我不能那么敏感，
要看开点。

我知道
我是幸福的，
因为还有家人爱我。

我知道
我不能轻易掉眼泪。

其实，我都知道。
可是为什么我就是做不到呢？？？
好讨厌我自己！！！
死掉算了~！

Sensitive

Am I sensitive too???

I get 'hurt' or 'touched' easily nowadays...

I'll take it solemnly...

Not going to voice out or cry...

Gonna be strong...

Dont Know

All these while, I keep telling myself that I will be better...
I will be alright, very normal for a few weeks...
But, a small incident can make me emo again...
Then, start those negative thinking... >,<

Now, I am telling myself again that I will recover from my失恋后遗症...
This time, will I success???
I dont know... I just want to try hard and all my best to recover...

I want to become the normal me...
The talkative girl... Talk naturally...
Not talk to hide my emo...

I am gonna be better for our next gathering...
Can I do it??? I hope I will...

变

最近的自己，变得不像自己。。。
昨天我问了曾经最了解我的他，我是不是变了？？？
他说，‘一个人变了是不会自己知道的，除非是自己刻意改变咯。。。’
也许他说得对。。。是我自己刻意把原来的自己藏起来了。。。
把自己变得郁郁寡欢，沉默，胡思乱想。。。
把原来那个爱讲话，乐观，叽喳的我藏到不知道哪去了。。。
我还在寻找那把钥匙，打开心房的钥匙。。。
Danny和Alvin说得对，努力的去寻找那把钥匙吧~

谢谢你的不曾忘记，至少我知道我还是在你的回忆里的。。。
就如你所说的：
如果你连自己都不爱自己，你有什么资格去爱人，让人爱你？
过去，让它过去。。。
放下不是逃避与忘记，是面对与接受。。。
让它成为回忆，在自己心中藏着，让自己回味，就像我不曾忘记，只是我面对事实。。。

我知道了。。。谢谢你。。。
我会重新振作的，做个全新的自己。。。

Outings + Gathering

Holidays time means my outings and gathering time with my beloved friends~
Yoohoo~!

7 Sept 2010 (Tuesday)

~Kay pau~Jacks (Jeng Cheng)~Fiona~Cha Yee~Laoda~Momo~Me~

*At Dagan while waiting Chayee they all...

*Wicthery Ider - Lateh + Chit chat...

Momo was so quiet...Must talk more, k?

*Sing K...

Kay Pau keep makes us laugh his pitch and voice...

Jacks, you can sing well...But, you dont want to sing...

Fiona and MinMin's voice are nice too...

But, seems like didnt hear Laoda singing... Haha...

10 Sept 2010 (Friday)

Kay Pau~Jo~Jacks~Fiona~MinMin~Ju~Me

Kay Pau had his 'breakfast' at 12pm...==

After that, watch movie...

That Ms.Indian asked, "Semua 18 ke atas ke?"

All of us burst into laughter...

That question refer to Fiona Ng...Haha...XD

*Resident Evil*

A nice movie, but a bit bloody and made me shocked a few times...

Bought a handbag for myself...=)

Going to bring back to uni...

PS : What a pity Chayee and Laoda cant join us...

PS 2 : Chayee went to Melaka and waited for the zoo to open...haha...XD

Nice day with nice people~

11 Sept 2010 (Saturday)

Had Taekwondo training by Jo...

Not so exhausted as I expected...

But, still learn some new techniques...

Girls~ remember to eat something before training ya~

Treat Jo eat as I promised...

12 Sept 2010 (Sunday)

Had gathering with Danny, Alvin and Jason...

A bit quiet at Moxi...

Not like me at all...

A bit emo...

After all, this was a nice gathering...

Danny suprised everyone with his singing...

Bravo, Danny~!

Our nice gathering activity will be Cheong K...

Looking forward to it...

Seems like love to sing now~

I will be better... I promise that...

A new me will be born in a short time~ Hopefully~

=)

Hurt

Recently watched 2 videos regarding my university...
It is about racism...
It was in the past...Yet they still wanna share the video...
Hmph~
Maybe I am too 'sensitive'...
Or I just too 'love' my university??? Haha...

Because sharing the video only makes the issue worse...
I sincerely hopes that it will stop...
My friend told me that people have the rights to know the truth...
I know that... But, it cant be at this moment...
It will makes the situation worse...
I want a peaceful Malaysia...

Haiz~ Luckily that issue is cooling down bit by bit...
Hope it will be better...
So, please dont share any videos regarding racism to make our country 'kacau-bilau'...
Let's pray for a better and peaceful country~

Peace~!

Emo? Sensitive?

I dont know what are you thinking actually...
Trying to use those emotional and sensitivity to attract our cares for you?
Please be mature...
Friends cant be always with you...
That 3 words 'I miss you' will not be hanging at our mouth and tell you that...
Just like what Min Min and Fiona say de, '挂在嘴边的关心和想念不一定是真心的'...
Dont always hope that we will give you in...

You need to be mature...Especially your thinking...
If not, you are not going to survive when you are in university...
Nobody will really care for you in university...
At least for the first fe months, you will not so fast find a true freind of yours...
Remember that...
Let go of your sensitivity and emotional...
Be a high EQ person...

Dont say that we didnt think of you...We did...
Only that you does not know about that...
You can enjoy with your friends...Same goes to us...
And dont always think that you cant 'go into' our topic...
You can try...Just like me...Ask them to tell you the overall topic...
Dont expect us to have the same topic as you...
You must try to get used of it...

Hope you can really grown up with a mature mind and high EQ~!

PS : This is dedicated to somebody...If you think you are the one, then you are... =P

New Blog~New Mind~New Thinking~

Hiya~
This is my new blog...
Going to dump my old blog with those nice memory with him~

Hello to me, the single me~
And happy reading to my freinds~ =)